There are probably a million words I could use to describe my day yesterday, but the two I am going with is--
CHALLENGING!!! and GRATEFUL!I am not sure if Andrea is sick, teething, or what, but she would not let me leave her. By leave her, I mean put her down for a second. Sometimes she gets a little fussy if I am not in the room with her, but yesterday she screamed like mad if I wasn't holding her. At first, I didn't do anything about it, ( I should also note that she is at that stage where she puts anything and everything in her mouth, so can't ever be left alone in a room for a second) but as the day went on I realized she needed comfort somehow. When I looked into her tear filled eyes as I walked in another room and see her saying to me "Momma, please don't leave me. I need you" my heart melts and I run to my little babe to comfort her.
This did not make showering and doing my hair easy ( which I rarely do, but really wanted to for some reason yesterday). When this all began I was upset and frustrated. As the day went on, I found joy in it. I loved the fact that Andy knows her mom and needs her.
I just held her and thanked heaven for this beautiful gift that I have been blessed to take care of and be in my life. I have never felt anything like this before. Someone needs me to survive. What a powerful feeling! What a great emotional sensation.
I thought about momma's day around the corner and this one being my first. All I really want is to hold my baby in my arms, have my husband by my side, and just feel of their love. I am so grateful to be a momma. I never knew if my body would let that happen. I feel so blessed and overjoyed to have part in raising one of Heavenly Father's choicest little angels.
I have been sent these little cartoons like ten times, so I thought I would finally make an effort and post them here. The first time I was sent them was from an old friend who loved how I freak out about everything with my baby. I am still learning so much...but here are some helpers: